More self analysis...

In my last post I said

And people who know me don't think me timid at all, I don't think.

This week someone mentioned something to me that made me realize I'm completely wrong in this assumption. I'm beginning to think I'm enclosed in a glass shell that prevents me from seeing clearly out, but everyone else can see in...

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Reconnecting

I'm really tired of being alone. I'm going to start trying to reconnect with people, most of all my husband. I really do love him, and I've cut myself off from him in a way. I should be happily married. He's really very good, but I'm just so timid! And people who know me don't think me timid at all, I don't think. But that's the core of my timidness — I hide my real self and only reveal the barest essentials of my soul. I must risk myself, or I'll never connect. It's just I'm so afraid of the complete disconnection that might come from absolute truth.

I have no idea how to be a person.

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