Rhubarby

I'm not really a waitress

2012-01-13T23:14:00.002-05:00

but I love OPI. That is all.

— Σαρα

Unclouded Day

2011-09-13T20:52:00.003-04:00

"I've almost got it!" Alycia cried out. She stretched the last fraction of an inch to reach the last paw-paw as her fiance, the cutest guy ever, held her up on his shoulders. Her fingers brushed it, causing it to drop and bounce off his head, and into the leaf litter on the ground. He dropped her to the ground, where she pounced on the wayward paw-paw.

"That's twenty-one!" she crowed triumphantly, placing it in the basket with the others. She gave him a quick peck on the lips, and holding hands they walked through the forest, down the hill to the house, triumphant in their possession of paw-paws and each-other.

— Σαρα

busybusybusy

2011-08-30T01:46:00.002-04:00

So I've been really busy with life and other things, and just haven't had much to say for over a year. I've been thinking of what, if anything, I need to write for the next episode in the story.

We'll see if I get to it...

— Σαρα

Bright Dawn

2010-07-14T21:07:00.003-04:00

"Was it a good wedding?" asked the cutest guy ever.

"Absolutely beautiful!"

Instead of just a couple of gallons to get her home safely, Alycia filled the tank while he quizzed her about the wedding. Somehow, she just wasn't so tired anymore.

She looked across the street to where a Denny's was, and an idea formed. "I think I could really use a cup of coffee and a piece of key lime pie right now."

The cutest guy ever said, "You know, that sounds really good. I love key lime pie. Denny's would have that and they're open..."

— Σαρα

A New Hope

2009-12-16T23:18:00.004-05:00

Alycia glanced at the dashboard of her car when the gas tank light popped on. Ah crap; I gotta' get gas... She pulled into the next dinosaur juice dispensary. She was on her way home from Melissa and Brent's wedding. It was very late and she was very tired.

"Just a couple of gallons..." she said aloud as she leaned back against her car while the gas pumped.

A big SUV pulled up on the opposite side of the gas pump, and the cutest guy ever — sandy brown hair and blue blue eyes — hopped out, smiled at her, and started pumping gas.

"This thing drinks like a fish," he said, giving her a big smile. "Lemee guess -- always the bridesmaid, never the bride?"

Alycia blushed smiling, and gave a downward glance; "Maid of honor actually, but this is only the first time..."

— Σαρα

Tempus fugit

2009-12-16T22:40:00.001-05:00

thirty-seven, fast approaching...

— Σαρα

Clear View

2009-01-27T23:12:00.007-05:00

"So, Joe, right? You work with Brent, right?" Alycia opened the conversation as she leaned against the bar and said to the bartender "A Tom Collins, please?" Melissa and Brent had left an hour before. Many of the guests had followed suit and the open bar would be closing soon.

"Yeah, I do the web site." Joe looked her up and down, his gaze stopping too many inches below her eyes.

"Neat. Did you go to school for computers?" She dropped her head a bit to try and catch his gaze. The bartender put Joe's rum and coke on the bar, and began making her Tom Collins.

"No, I majored in mass-com, which I think is better for it anyway. I know a lot of guys who do web design who majored in computer science and think they know everything... like those guys know how to communicate. It's not like programming in HTML is hard." He looked at her left hand, then back to her chest. "What about you?"

"Uh..." This is not going anywhere, she thought to herself, as she glanced down at the bar. "I, uh, work for a consulting firm... " The bartender put her drink on the bar in front of her and moved on to the next in line. She picked up the drink and sipped.

"Really? What do you do?" He at least was looking her straight in the eye now.

"Oh, we do a lot of embedded software development," she said, brightening. She liked her job. "The big project right now is a naval, uh, avionics package..." She trailed off as he rolled his eyes.

"So you know about those programmers too! What do you do? Human resources or something?"

This was going south very quickly. Embarrassment mixed with irritation on her face as she took a deep breath and replied, "I'm developing a PC side library for downloading telemetry data from an airframe mounted rotary cannon. I'm a programmer."

"Oh, uh, I... I didn't mean anything about that programmer crack, you know."

"Oh Sure! Hey, I gotta' go talk to Melissa's mom... Maid of Honor stuff, you know..." Alycia took her drink, forced a smile at Joe, and walked off toward the wedding party's table.

— Σαρα

Reflections

2009-01-20T02:44:00.004-05:00

Alycia finished applying fresh powder to the shiny spots on her face and put the compact back in her clutch, then examined herself in the mirror. She tried to enjoy the brief pause in an otherwise raucous, overbearing evening full of loud music and loud people that she should have been enjoying. Melissa and Brent were married now but Alycia felt a gaping sense of emptiness. She was still alone with no prospects and her best friends' relationship was closed to her just that little bit more.

She picked up her cocktail glass from the counter. "Maybe that Joe guy would dance with me."

— Σαρα

Regular posting? Ha!

2009-01-20T01:45:00.001-05:00

Not much gonna' happen. Depression is not good.

— Σαρα

Yah, it's been half a year

2008-09-10T19:37:00.004-04:00

So it's been half a year since I last posted. Nobody reads anyway but I'm feeling better and I have a new heroine:

I was not impressed with John M^cCain, but I was going to hold my nose and vote for him anyway. I don't have to hold my nose now, and it's not just because he has the perfect woman for a running mate. I still disagree with him on a variety of things, but I respect him more now after learning more about him. But Sarah Palin is awesome. She's everything I aspire to be. It would be nice if she had two full terms as governor, but she's still 10 times more qualified for the presidency than Sheriff Bart, and she's only running for VP.

— Σαρα

More self analysis...

2008-02-11T17:37:00.000-05:00

In my last post I said

And people who know me don't think me timid at all, I don't think.

This week someone mentioned something to me that made me realize I'm completely wrong in this assumption. I'm beginning to think I'm enclosed in a glass shell that prevents me from seeing clearly out, but everyone else can see in...

— Σαρα

Reconnecting

2008-02-06T18:25:00.000-05:00

I'm really tired of being alone. I'm going to start trying to reconnect with people, most of all my husband. I really do love him, and I've cut myself off from him in a way. I should be happily married. He's really very good, but I'm just so timid! And people who know me don't think me timid at all, I don't think. But that's the core of my timidness — I hide my real self and only reveal the barest essentials of my soul. I must risk myself, or I'll never connect. It's just I'm so afraid of the complete disconnection that might come from absolute truth.

I have no idea how to be a person.

— Σαρα

Upon the Frozen Sea

2008-01-14T15:46:00.000-05:00

Upon the frozen sea
    I am a ship aflame
I rage with righteous anger
    yet melt not the frozen depths

My heat dissipates upon the ice
    the tepid water refreezes 
My self my fuel, all consumed,
    in futile effort expended

The bitter waste engulfs the ash
And marks not my existence

This has been the way I have felt for a long time, as long as I can remember honestly. I guess I'm coming to grips with the fact that I suffer from depression. It may be clinical/chemically based. I may in fact need anti-depressant medications. I don't know if changing my diet would help or not. I try to avoid high-carb/high-glycemic index foods, but I don't do a very good job. I'm very susceptible to changes in blood sugar and the effects of caffeine. I can be very angry and snappish before dinner, then within minutes of beginning to eat, I'm in a great mood.

I want to be happy, and I know that I can be, but I'm afraid. I'm really not close with anyone. I feel like I have a wall that separates me, a façade that I hide behind that protects me from being hurt by others. I feel that if I let someone else in and trust him that I will hurt him and be hurt in return. I feel that the things I like and believe, that the way I am and want to be, are hurtful or offensive to others. I feel that if I let others see the real me, they will be hurt or disgusted, offended or angered, and they will reject me utterly.

I want to be completely open and honest about everything. I want to live without fear. I long to unburden my heart into the caring hands of one who loves me unconditionally. I know Jesus is and should be that One, but I long for a physical one who will wrap his arms around me and whose voice I can really hear.

My father was distant.

Funny, the eponymous poem at the beginning of this post was really about the despair I feel about having any noticeable positive effect on this world, but the post turned out to be about other things...

There will be more. This may be the beginning of my therapy.

— Σαρα

How boring am I?

2007-12-31T15:26:00.001-05:00

Wow. I was just updating my profile (it's an incredibly slow day at work) and I realized how boring I've become, and honestly probably always was. I haven't even blogged in however long. Music is the only bright-spot. I've always enjoyed a broad range of music and Pandora has helped me find many new and enjoyable songs. But in books? I hardly ever read anymore, and nothing terribly interesting. In this past year, I've read some Wooster & Jeeves, and Karen Marie Moning's Dark Fever and Blood Fever books. Yes! they're romance novels, but not bad ones! They're a little silly, but fun and they hold my attention. They're a lot more like Diana Gabaldon's Outlander series (though it's much meatier) than a normal romance novel. Everything else I've read this year has been work related - programming languages, methodologies, and processor manuals. Gah! I love my job, but with the kids, work, and keeping up the house, I just don't seem to have any time to be interesting anymore.

I used to read a lot of science fiction. I read most of Asimov's writings. I've read almost everything Heinlein wrote, until I got tired of EVERYTHING being about sex. His stuff got so boring later on, because all he wrote about was how all of his characters were having sex with all of his other characters, and how cool they all were with it. His earlier stuff, like The Moon is a Harsh Mistress and Starship Troopers had some really good philosophy, but later the stories all got to be completely unrealistic in the way human interaction was shown. NOBODY was ever jealous! I put down Time Enough For Love in the middle of it, and I've really not read anything by Heinlein since, it was just so stupid. Now, I hardly read fiction at all, and I never write. I used to enjoy writing short stories. I just can't seem to make time anymore. When I have free time, I'm too tired to be creative.

I don't even watch many movies anymore. I don't have time to go to the library and find stuff to watch. I love foreign films, French and Chinese especially. But again, no time.

I haven't kayaked (or canoed) for over a year. In fact, I can't remember the last time I was on the water. I don't go hiking or camping anymore. We didn't get to hunt at all this year. We don't go out at all. I used to love going to clubs and dancing. We hardly even go to movies now. I think in the past couple of years, we've only gone out for our anniversary, and then we just have dinner and see a movie. He doesn't like going to clubs or bars, so we don't even go get a drink.

I've been a disappointment to my husband in bed for sometime now. I just don't want it, which I know isn't uncommon, but still... and that doesn't mean that I don't want him. We're just not connecting. I've forced myself to be more receptive in the past couple of months and give him a chance to at least try to get me into the mood. It's helped and we've had some good experiences. I've been trying to just go with the flow and not attach so much importance to it.

What's worse? I'm going to turn thirty-five this year. I've been thinking of my self as "almost thirty-five" for the past couple of months just so when it happens it won't hurt so badly. I keep thinking of all the things I never did and blaming myself because nobody but myself prevented me from doing any of them. I was the one that made the choices for myself. I took on these responsibilities and obligations.

I think the most infuriating thing about all of this is how simply unexceptional it is. I'm firmly average, right in the middle of the bell curve. So many women have this same experience right around this same age.

At least I have hope. I've fallen in love with and been eating a lot of sushi and other Asian foods this year. I've even tried my hand at making nigri. At least I have lunch time to try new things! I don't have a boring spirit, I have an adventurous spirit. I'm held back only by the very worthy responsibilities I've agreed too, but those won't last forever. My kids are growing up and we're getting ahead. We'll get back outdoors. Maybe I'll get a nightlife again. Romance will rekindle. I will do worthy and valuable things!

Happy New Year!

— Σαρα

Updates from out of this world...

2007-11-07T17:13:00.001-05:00

So, Yahoo! Avatars adds a bunch of Star Wars themed stuff. I created this avatar:

I wanted to be Princess Leia when I was little, `specially after she got rid of that awful white dress from the first movie, and you know how husbands are with the slave girl outfit... ;^)

So, when looking for pics of Kristen Bell to add to a post about her joining the cast of Heroes, imagine my surprise on finding this:

I'm so going to see this movie!

So anyway, KB is playing Elle in Heroes. It seems to be a small part. She's only been in two episodes so far. I'll admit that I wasn't terribly impressed with her acting, not that it was bad, just that she seemed to be playing Veronica Mars with a high-voltage touch. Elle dressed and looked just like Veronica would, and had the same mannerisms. I think Kristen certainly has enough range to have made the character completely different.

She's also narrating Gossip Girl, which meh.

— Σαρα

Another good example

2007-08-03T13:57:00.001-04:00

Danica McKellar is publishing a math book for girls, Math Doesn't Suck. Pretty cool! It's really good to have role models who are accomplished at other things than just being pretty. Of course, what does it say about us that we really only notice the ones who are accomplished and pretty?

— Σαρα

It's raining in California...

2007-07-02T14:41:00.000-04:00

I think the end of the 3^rd season finale was quite fitting. I remember that song playing on the radio in the car when I was little.

Veronica Mars has been canceled and I am sad.
— Σαρα

Many years

2007-06-29T16:14:00.000-04:00

In other news, my husband is taking me out for sushi this weekend for our anniversary! Mmmmm, nigiri toro!
— Σαρα

Denim mini's

2007-06-29T15:54:00.000-04:00

Denim miniskirts are my favorite piece of clothing, and I stumbled across a picture of my favorite. I wear this one all the time!
— Σαρα

My dream life...

2007-06-07T10:36:00.000-04:00

I think this avatar pretty well shows my dream life. It makes me very happy whenever I see it.
— Σαρα

The big (rainy) race

2007-05-30T15:52:00.000-04:00

The race ended 34 laps early this year because of rain. Ah well, my girl Danica only came in 8^th again, and Sarah Fisher only got 18^th. Rookie Milka Duno was 31^st, crashing out. But wow! three beautiful, talented women in the race this year! Duno has FOUR masters degrees!

Says Danica: I don't think of myself as being a girl driver, or setting girl records. If you can cut it you'll cut it, and you'll last in this sport. That is the right attitude! If we're going to make it in traditionally male arenas, we must do so on our merits alone. A female driver can't have as her motivation to be the first girl to win. Her motivation must be to win!

I have a nasty feeling though that Danica gets better rides than Sarah because she's better looking (which is why I chose that picture of Sarah). Seriously, Danica drove for Rahal-Letterman, and now Andretti-Green, while Sarah drives for Dreyer and Reinbold. They can't field as good a car and team. Of course, that's probably true for men too. If you have two male drivers of equal skill, the one that photographs better is probably going to get better rides. So I guess if Sarah suffers from "looks-ism", it's not because of her sex.

If a woman wins the 500 in the next few years, I think it'll be Danica. Sarah though, is pretty consistent and continues to improve, so I think she'll get better rides eventually, so she could win it, say, ten years from now. Hopefully they'll both win someday, and people will recognize that it's not about being a woman, but about being a driver.

I love driving. I prefer to drive a stick, but I'm stuck with a dumb minivan right now. I'd love to spend a day at the track with any of these three.

— Σαρα

Will Mars get Kaned?

2007-05-23T15:37:00.000-04:00

So, the Veronica Mars season finale was last night. The last few episodes felt kinda' weak. In fact, the entire season felt weak. But I think it ended with some fun stuff and with what I felt was a decent setup for next season. Jake Kane and Clarence Weidman? Wow! Where's Celeste? Here's hoping for a stronger next season!
— Σαρα

Like Bilbo...

2007-05-18T17:05:00.000-04:00

I've passed 111! This makes post #112 for me! Yea, me!
— Σαρα

I've always loved Renee

2007-05-14T17:10:00.000-04:00

And I love this dress!

— Σαρα

A good idea

2007-05-11T16:41:00.000-04:00

So, recently, my favorite pair of panties wore out. Now the matching bra has plenty of life left in it, but of course, Victoria's Secret doesn't sell this style anymore. This sucks. I realize I ought to have bought two or three pairs of the matching panties at the time (and I have since started doing this), but that still leaves the problem of when they're sold together as a set. So my idea is that when they sell them in sets, they should sell them in sets with one bra and two or three panties. Good idea?

— Σαρα

It's race month!

2007-05-09T15:08:00.000-04:00

So this week I'm impersonating Danica Patrick. Go Danica!
— Σαρα

In other news...

2007-05-03T18:08:00.000-04:00

I'm impersonating Dido this week.

— Σαρα

Veronica was new...

2007-05-03T18:02:00.000-04:00

...but not quite as satisfying. No season mystery was directly introduced, though I suspect the seeds of one were planted and it will blossom next week. I really don't like Veronica with Piz, even as a temporary thing. Yeesh. He's a twerp; a sweet twerp, but a twerp none the less.
— Σαρα

Veronica returns next week...

2007-04-27T16:59:00.000-04:00

Veronica Mars is returning next week, and I'm happy!

— Σαρα

Something I'm playing with...

2007-04-27T16:36:00.000-04:00

— Σαρα

The Angel of Death wears Crocs!

2007-04-20T17:48:00.000-04:00

Manolo's Shoe Blog: Shoes, Fashion, Celebrity, and Manolo!:

Manolo says, do not be the Angel of Death, do not wear the Crocs.

— Σαρα

Grumpy too!

2007-04-04T18:15:00.000-04:00

And I'm grumpy too that there won't be a new Veronica Mars episode until MAY!

Brrrrrrr!!!!

2007-04-04T15:52:00.000-04:00

What happened to our weather?! Yikes, it got cold! It was 81° yesterday, then a couple of hours later it was 61°; now today it's 30° AND SNOWING!

Where's global warming when you need it?

— Σαρα

little endian, big endian, which endian are you?

2007-03-05T13:59:00.000-05:00

union
{
int i;
char c[sizeof(int)];
};
memset( c, 0, sizeof(c) ); // 0 the memory
i = 0xff; // now set the int to 256
if ( c[0] == (char)i ) printf ( "I'm lil' endian!" ); // if the first byte of the array is the same as the "littlest" byte of the int...

Ada is an insult to its eponym

2007-02-19T16:34:00.000-05:00

Variant record types are half-assed polymorphism — polymorphism done wrongly! Just say no!

Veronica surprises me constantly

2007-02-07T18:09:00.000-05:00

I was pleasantly surprised by Veronica Mars this week. They didn't paint the televangelist as a horrible judgmental hypocrite, but a loving supportive father. His acceptance of his daughter's out-of-wedlock pregnancy was a bit too easy, though. A bit more struggle and discomfort would have been more realistic.

HWA was not the end time Elijah

2007-01-26T12:43:00.000-05:00

Malachi+4:5-6:

5"Behold, I am going to send you Elijah the prophet before the coming of the great and terrible day of the LORD.
6"He will restore the hearts of the fathers to their children and the hearts of the children to their fathers, so that I will not come and smite the land with a curse."

I can't really imagine how anyone thinks that he fulfilled this verse. I don't see that the hearts of the fathers and children have been turned to each other in America.

awesome = new job;

2007-01-25T18:00:00.000-05:00

Title says it all! Been way busy with stuff.

— Σαρα

Silently

2007-01-09T16:03:00.000-05:00

Silently I hurtle through the night
A humming metal box in flight
Smoothly through the curves I slide
White dashes by me glide
Rythmic sounds create the trance
of the night drive home.

Awake

2007-01-02T16:56:00.001-05:00

Alycia rolled out of bed and whacked the snooze button hard. It was 8:40 Sunday morning and if she took time for a shower, she would be late for work. She pulled on a denim mini-skirt, slipped on her flip-flops, and pulled her hair into a pony tail as she went to the kitchen for a diet soda and an orange. She tossed the orange peel in the trash, grabbed her purse, and headed out the back door to her car. Mascara, eye-liner, and lip gloss could be done while driving.

Thankfully, no cops were seen on her drive into town.

So begins the new year

2007-01-02T15:33:00.000-05:00

So, we're beginning a new year, and I'm going to be starting a new job soon. It's going to be cool, but I may not be able to blog as much. Not like I've been writting much anyway. C`est la vie!

Vases

2006-12-18T14:39:00.000-05:00

A collection of Vases.

I walk and look into each:

Most empty;
    void;
       vacant.

Some full;
    vile;
       disgusting.

Where is the jar with the water?

I see it. It overflows!

Home again.

2006-12-12T12:03:00.000-05:00

Alycia closed the door behind her as Melissa and Brent drove away. That lonely let-down feeling was beginning to nip at her heels already. It was that desire to be with and interact with people, that hunger for companionship, so strong inside and gnawing. Stronger even since her two best friends wanted to be alone. Her parents were in bed already and her sister and brother no longer lived at home, not that any of them would have had more than a mild palliative effect. The TV, ineffective and numbing as it was, would have to suffice.

"Live from New York! It's Saturday Night...."

twilight

2006-12-08T13:15:00.000-05:00

I spin in twilight,
fleeing gloomy darkness,
chasing sun,
never capturing it.

I falter,
exhausted,
and night engulfs me.

I will rest and run again.

Off to the movies

2006-11-27T17:21:00.000-05:00

Alycia opened the door and stepped out on to the front step where Melissa and her boyfriend Brent were waiting.
"Ready?" she asked.
"Yeah. Let's go."
They climbed into Brent's Chevy pick-up and drove off down the lane to the main road. After fifteen minutes, they arrived at the movie theater in town. Brent bought drinks and a tub of popcorn, and they went in to watch the movie.

— Σαρα

Picking Paw-paws

2006-11-01T10:27:00.001-05:00

Alycia ran her hand through her hair, shaking the leaves out, and looked at Melissa with a wry grin. "I don't know if I could do that again." She dusted off her jeans and they walked through the forest down the hill to the house, triumphant in their possesion of paw-paws.

— Σαρα

Marie Anntoinette

2006-10-30T12:55:00.000-05:00

My honey and I went to see Marie Antoinette Saturday night. It was odd. I sorta' liked it. I loved the music, but director Sophia Coppola didn't go all the way with it, which made it not work for me. There was still maybe 1/3 period correct music in it. It also felt plotless. This happens to Marie, Marie does this thing, Marie goes here. It just seemed like there was no central driving force behind the action. The costuming was great! Many beautiful dresses and shoes by the Maestro Manolo Blahnik! I loved Marie's corset that she wore from Austria! The pattern of the fabric was gorgeous!

Over all I'm glad I saw it, but I don't need to see it again. Of course my honey didn't like it at all.

A short piece

2006-10-27T16:21:00.000-04:00

Deepest Sender sucks and ate my post on Wired's six word stories, wherein I mentioned that I was going to start writing some very short stories and poems myself. Here's one.

She sat at her desk, turned slightly to stare out the window. "I'm tired" she thought. "I'm so glad it's Friday." Fifteen minutes more would see her making her way homeward where she would meet her adoring husband to have a quiet dinner together. She would probably make lamb and accompany it with a merlot.

— Σαρα

And there was much rejoicing!

2006-10-26T08:47:00.000-04:00

Lab created diamonds are becoming much cheaper!

This one looks like something Queen Elizabeth the 1^st might have worn. Maybe my honey will buy me one... although yellow's really not a good color for me.

— Σαρα

Even better!

2006-10-19T14:21:00.000-04:00

I bought Portishead's second album, self titled Portishead, for myself for the Feast this year. What have I been doing for nine years? Yikes! It's awesome! It's better than their first album, Dummy. Which, wow! it makes me feel ancient that it's been out for nine years! I was 25 when it was released.

Mars in a Saturn in Neptune!

2006-10-04T13:28:00.000-04:00

The third season of Veronica Mars premiered last night with new opening titles including a new version of the theme song. Veronica is now a college freshman. Veronica now has a silver Saturn Vue, courtesy her dad's fee from helping Kendall with something to do with large sums of cash. The writing in this episode definitely had Rob Thomas' stamp on it. It felt a little uneven.

I wish I'd had one of these for my wedding

2006-10-03T16:43:00.000-04:00

Via Manolo for the Brides:

I like this idea. This would make a great keepsake from your wedding. Though some of these are kinda' tacky. A lot of brides like to show off their garters. Lots of them feature pets, professional, and hobby items. At least three of them in the gallery feature guns! One bride has a gun on her garter and she's wearing combat boots! I think she's a cop. She's handcuffed to her groom and leading him forward.

They're pretty expensive though, starting at $2300 for a couple with bouquet.

Kristen makes contact with the dead

2006-09-29T13:28:00.000-04:00

She just reminds me so much of Katherine Hepburn in this photo! Her posture, the way she's holding her head, her smile. Gah! I love Kristen as much as anybody, but sometimes that fashion sense of her's needs a little work.

Do you think?

2006-09-18T17:20:00.000-04:00

Last week, I read an article about how people who listen to "hip-hop" "music" are more likely to be promiscuous and commit crime. "[M]ore than 50 percent of both hip hop and dance music lovers admitting to committing a criminal act"! Really! Are we surprised? Part of me is astounded that it's really true, but the rational part of me is not one bit surprised. You listen to music that is all about sex and crime, and you have sex and commit crime?

I "station surf" alot while driving and I hear this stuff that's being played on top-40 radio, and I'm amazed that it's allowed by the FCC. The Pussy Cat Dolls have a song called Loosen Up My Buttons which may as well be called I'm Disappointed That You Aren't Performing A Sex Act On Me At This Moment. The horrible thing is that it has a really catchy beat and a cool "belly dance" kind of sound and I find myself listening to it, even though it's horrible and offensive!

It's no wonder kids are having sex and committing crime. They hear this stuff full of approval of promiscuity, drug use, and violence. If everything you're putting in your mind is saying "It's OK", it becomes what you think about at idle moments. You at first become tolerant (if you were ever intolerant) that people do this and from there it's a short (hip-)hop to feeling there's nothing wrong with doing it at all. Once you think there's nothing wrong with it, you will do it at the first opportunity. This stuff should not be played on the radio.

I grew up in the `80s and `90s listening to 'alternative' music. I listened to Depeche Mode, the Cure, U2, even Ministry and KMFDM, and I still do. I won't claim that any of them are really postive influences, but I can't think (admittedly off-hand) of a single song by any of those bands that's about sex or crime. There's certainly not the obsession with sex that hip-hop has. I'd rather my kids listen to Ministry's Stigmata than to Justin Timberlake's Sexyback, which by the way, sounds like a cheap knock-off of what My Life with the Thrill Kill Kult was doing around 1989 or 1990. The difference is the thought that goes into the song lyrics. Al Jourgensen and Paul Barker actually have intelligent topics to address, even if I disagree with their thoughts.

That is the crux of the matter. The popular crap is thoughtless and unintelligent. It's all about mindless carnal acts.

Veronica tonight!

2006-09-12T17:06:00.000-04:00

Tonight the last two episodes of season two are being aired, ending the UPN era. Tuesday, October 3^rd at 9^PM begins the new season on the CW.

Update: Oh I was so mad last night! The stupid former UPN affiliate is now on the "My" network, so they played the stupid (and I do mean stupid, lame, vapid) My network shows instead of the double shot of Veronica I was expecting. It makes me want to hiss!

Perfect Shoes

2006-08-28T11:37:00.000-04:00

The Manolo has found the perfect shoes for women my age who are too mature to wear Lolita clothes, but still have it (as I'd like to think I do). Now, a red dress to go with them!

Fun stuff

2006-08-18T17:24:00.000-04:00

It's goofy and fun and it makes me wish I had some place and some time to wear it!

Meez avatar site

2006-08-16T16:48:00.000-04:00

I found this new avatar site, Meez.com. Here's what I have so far. I like how my Yahoo avatar looks better than this one. This needs tuning. But the site is in beta so I'm sure it will improve.

Preview Veronica

2006-08-11T16:57:00.000-04:00

Watch the Veronica Mars series preview trailer on YouTube. I love that show.

So maybe I am a waitress...

2006-08-08T13:54:00.000-04:00

I'll still claim I'm not!

Fairy Wear?

2006-07-28T15:56:00.000-04:00

This is beautiful, but a gown really should be worn over it. It just looks like underwear.

Now this one is gorgeous! Just perfect!

I really like that the bodice and skirt are seperate. This place really likes corsets.

I should point out that many of the models on the Fairy Goth Mother site are wearing stripperific shoes! Imagine that!

Now here's something more fun from Gypsy Moon. Isn't it cute?

Too much Breakfast...

2006-07-27T11:40:00.000-04:00

A Dress A Day reports that Audrey Hepburn's Givenchy dress from "Breakfast at Tiffany's" is being auctioned by Christie's. Look at this woman they've put in it for publicity photos. She's by no means unattractive, but she's simply too large for the dress! Audrey Hepburn was a tiny woman. You can't put a normal sized woman, no matter how attractive, into her dress without risking damage!

A nice hat for summer...

2006-07-21T17:02:00.000-04:00

This would be perfect for vacationing at Jekyll Island I think, or maybe Mackinac Island.

I like hats.

Happy Bastille Day!

2006-07-14T12:58:00.000-04:00

Shoes and Cocktails

2006-06-28T17:23:00.000-04:00

The Manolo is featuring these. Aren't they adorable? Manolo suggests that they would be perfect for an intimate cocktail party with friends and I agree.

I picture myself wearing these with a like-colored spaghetti strapped knee length cocktail dress.

Maybe something like this...

or this...

Now if this were in the right color it would be perfect! I think the fringe on the hem would be wonderful with the pom-poms on the shoes.

Here are the same shoes in black to match this dress... I still prefer the blue though.

Bottoms up!

Another fabulous dress!

2006-06-26T18:22:00.000-04:00

Isn't this one fabulous! It makes me think of driving a convertible, and old one from the `50s, in Malibu or Palm Beach or someplace like that, spending a sunny afternoon with my best friend.

Another gorgeous dress from the 50s!

2006-06-23T13:46:00.000-04:00

You know, the fifties produced some of the most amazingly gorgeous clothes, both women's and men's. The men's clothes, even the work clothes, were much snazzier. And there were dresses like this to wear. Why can't we have this sort of style today?

Two nice dresses from J. Peterman

2006-06-13T17:18:00.000-04:00

I like these. I don't have much to say about them other than that.

These are just not right

2006-06-13T17:05:00.000-04:00

I like wedges, but wedges should be summery and casual, not formal. Wedges don't go with a prom dress. These are just wrong. They're too chunky. Dressy shoes should be light and delicate.

I don't know why...

2006-06-12T14:17:00.000-04:00

...I like this dress, but I do. It calls to me somehow and says "Wear me on a lazy Sunday when you've nothing to do but lay around the house and yard."

Do you see a problem here?

2006-06-09T14:17:00.000-04:00

Look closely.

Maybe the huge gap between her teeth? Great dress. I love linen.

Rebel, Rebel!

2006-05-22T11:56:00.000-04:00

I've decide to be a rebel today!

Fabulous Dress, Fabulous Price

2006-05-16T17:13:00.000-04:00

Wow, this is a great dress! This site has amazing clothes at incredible prices!

Bill Gates sings...

2006-05-12T17:08:00.000-04:00

Bill Gates Sings You Broadway’s Greatest Hits @ Manolo's
I think he's singing something from Phantom of the Opera...

These are perfect!

2006-05-12T11:05:00.000-04:00

Now if only I had a dress to go with them.

Veronica graduates and lives to tell about it!

2006-05-10T12:32:00.000-04:00

The season finale of Veronica Mars was last night and Wow! Beaver was the bus killer who actually did rape Veronica and gave her the clap! Looking back, all the clues were there, but who saw it coming? Lamb was a real SOB to arrest Weevil during the graduation ceremony. And Veronica's high school must actually be tiny! There were 5 rows of maybe 12 seats for the graduates. That's only 60 kids. That's a small school! And Aaron Echolls getting offed by Clarence Wiedman for Duncan!

Race month!

2006-05-09T13:06:00.000-04:00

May is race month, beginning with the Kentucky Derby and ending with the Greatest Spectacle in Racing, the Indy 500!

One should be sipping a mint julep while wearing this hat. The Derby was run this past Saturday and Barbaro Remains Perfect With Dominating 6½-Length Victory In 132^nd Kentucky Derby. 6½ lengths! We might have a triple crown winner this year. There's been a real contender for the past couple of years, which is really exciting. It makes it so much more interesting. It's been so long since a horse has won the Derby, the Preakness, and the Belmont — 1978 was the last time! I was five.

But now we're into the 30 Days of May Go Danica! Even though you did pose for FHM... May in Indianapolis is always exciting. I looked all over for a checkered flag patterned dress to feature here, but the only things I could find were just plain trampy — nothing I would wear.

Happy Cinco de Mayo!

2006-05-05T12:02:00.000-04:00

This is what I'm wearing for Cinco de Mayo?

Uh, yeah, since Yahoo only has lame T-shirts that say "Happy Cinco de Mayo". No sombreros, no traditional Mexican clothes, no margaritas, just lame T-shirts. Yeah. So I went with the new faerie motif, `cause I like it! Isn't it pretty? I didn't like any of the wings they had though. All they had were butterfly wings. I would want something more gossamer and ephemeral.

Would I look like Grace Kelly?

2006-04-28T11:39:00.000-04:00

Look at this gorgeous dress I found through A Dress A Day!
Like Erin over at 'A Dress A Day', I also think this dress begs for a party! Cocktails at six, everyone?

So it's way over-priced!

2006-04-24T17:35:00.000-04:00

It's adorably cute!

Another fabulous dress

2006-04-18T17:07:00.000-04:00

Too bad it's way more than I can afford... Can you tell that I really like her stuff?

More rest tonight!

2006-04-18T14:36:00.000-04:00

Tonight begins the last day of the Feast of Unleavened Bread and I'm thankfull for the rest that I'll get. It's been crazy-busy the past few weeks. Hopefully things will settle back into routine after this week.

Rest on a Holy Day

2006-04-12T16:59:00.000-04:00

It's been a crazy lead-up to the spring holy days this year, but now Passover is past, and tomorrow is the first day of the Feast of Unleavened Bread (see Leviticus 23 if you have questions).

Is Veronica moving?

2006-04-06T11:39:00.000-04:00

So is Veronica really moving to Tuesday next week? We'll see. Good episode last night though. One thing that really bugged me though was how easily Logan bounced back after losing Hannah to distance. I really didn't want to see that happen. They glossed over it with some exposition about "oh she never called or wrote" but even with that, he sure didn't seem broken up over it. Certainly not in any way that would match how he acted in the previous episode.

Is the Veronica Episode tonight new?

2006-04-04T16:49:00.000-04:00

It's very confusing. The network promo last week made it sound like it was moving to Tuesday nights, but the official website says Tuesdays at 9PM will just be a rerun. What gives?

— Σαρα

DST -- Grrrrrrr...

2006-04-03T16:33:00.000-04:00

I hate Daylight Savings Time! It's a stupid idea whose time has past! There is no excuse for it in the modern age.

Traditional Jodhpurs

2006-03-31T16:38:00.000-05:00

I want these! I love this look! Well, not exactly this look. I hate the head scarf and I don't care for the blouse with them. I would match these pants with a loose white cotton or linen blouse and maybe a tight white tank-top under that.

Silk for Spring

2006-03-31T13:38:00.001-05:00

Here's another pretty dress for spring.

And here's a really pretty pink mandarin dress.

Here's another that I like quite a bit.

Spring for real

2006-03-30T16:24:00.000-05:00

It's 70° right now and I'm definitely feeling the spring. I'm in the mood for pretty spring dresses and this one is perfect!

Go Hearst!

2006-03-30T16:10:00.000-05:00

Another satisfying episode last night, except that when they end, I always want more! So Logan was a jerk to Hannah, but he couldn't live with it. See, he's really not a bad guy, he just needs the love of a good woman. Sadly his good woman got shipped across the continent for it. Hopefully, they won't let that stop him. He is rich and plane flights aren't that expensive. Plus there's always email and phone calls. I like Hannah alot; she's good for Logan. I don't want to see her leave.

Sadly, Veronica failed to find the real rapist in the episode mystery, but it wasn't a total bust. She did shut down the pervy frat and prevent a mis-justice. I think we know where Veronica's going to school next season. It's almost like she's a deer in the headlights. And I don't think Don Lamb will win re-election when his current term is up. "18's legal" doesn't make a very good campaign slogan.

Another gown I love

2006-03-29T17:18:00.000-05:00

This is from the 'Everyday and "Best" dress' section of the Graceful Lady site. Wow! At first blush I think "Oh I'd love to wear that everyday!" But on further reflection, maybe not everyday. Maybe just for church.

They're stripperific!

2006-03-28T17:14:00.000-05:00

Does anyone ever think something like this is in good taste?

Now this pair is advertised as perfect for weddings...

Heels to match!

2006-03-24T17:04:00.000-05:00

I think these would match quite nicely!

Another beautiful wool suit

2006-03-24T13:43:00.000-05:00

I really like these. I should find some heels to go with this.

Wools

2006-03-23T17:00:00.000-05:00

There really aren't many good wool dressses, but there are plenty of fabulous wool suits and skirts. I really love natural fiber clothes.

It was a good birthday

2006-03-23T11:34:00.000-05:00

I drank Duvel and watched a great episode of Veronica Mars. I think I'm coming to like this season better than last. I'm really liking Hannah and we see that Logan isn't entirely evil. He's really amoral, not evil. He doesn't seem to want to hurt people without cause, but he's nihlistic and directionless. Not surprising for a kid with his life.

Happy Birthday to Me!

2006-03-22T17:44:00.000-05:00

It's been a pretty good birthday all told. I got a very nice "awakening present" this morning from my honey!

For a warm afternoon

2006-03-21T13:36:00.000-05:00

I could just see myself standing at the railing of a steamship on my way to Europe wearing this dress, perhaps with the hat I mentioned in an earlier entry.

Now this one is for sitting on the porch on a hot summer afternoon, sipping lemonade.

The dress I should be wearing today

2006-03-17T16:53:00.000-05:00

With green underthings of course!

For the wearin' o' the green!

2006-03-14T18:30:00.000-05:00

That's what this Irish lass will have come Friday — a Black and Tan! I actually prefer to mix mine, and not seperate it though. Now if only Yahoo had drinks to put in your avatar's hand